Idea mapping...

Getting back to writing has been an emotional rollercoaster since class started. I don't know why I am so anxious and worrisome of how other people will view what I have to write about.
At this point in my life I have no choice but to move forward and to finish what I start.
Idea mapping may be a solution to what is making me have anxiety about getting my thoughts down on paper or on my word processor. It is a very simple and elementary writing tool that we all have gone through.
When I have an idea I can write it down and then go from there about what else my main subject can lead into. I have kept journals before about things I was going through or wanted to do and why. I have since destroyed the journals because of my thoughts being so personal and how I was feeling at the time of the writings.
I will overcome my anxiety and anxiousness about writing because I am determined to write a book. My first book or short-story will be soon. I have learned of other class mates of actually publishing their own books to date. That accomplishment to me has been an inspiration. I have recently learned of my classmates success.

Comment to Erik Krausen blog..Writing is like a release...

Erik, I enjoyed reading your blog. You stated alot of reasons why writing is a release. I agree with you about feeling relieved and satisfied with being able to honestly express oneself by writing. I use to keep journals of what was going on in my life, I didn’t want to burden someone else with what I was going through and by writing down what I experienced and then reading it over I was able to reflect and learn from it.
When you wrote about how writing can be intimidating and how the writer may feel ashamed to speak thier minds, I could totally relate to that statement. It’s not like I have anything to hide, I am who I am and sometimes I may not agree with everyone. So its, safe to say we are all different and are able to freely write about what ever we want to on our blogs. I am saying that because I kinda got lost on this blog and viewed others blogs that are not in our class.
Blogging may be just the thing that I have been looking for. I read alot and afterwards, I wish I could speak to someone else about the book. I could blog about what I just read about. This class has been very encouraging to me. Thanks for your post.

Writing is like......

Writing is like really easy to think about. I love to think about things to write about but when I get the pen and paper, I go blank. I would feel foolish to record my thoughts because when I play them back, “I’m like is that what I sound like?” and I erase them. I am intimidated and excited about writing about how I feel. I’m intimidated because by writing something down I am sharing a piece of myself with others I don’t know. I am excited about writing because I want to write. I want to write about crazy lives and what people go through. I would love to write a book, I read books and know I could write a story similar to them.
Well since I took the time to write about writing, I have gone through a lot of emotions. I feel excited, exposed and fearful. That seems funny to me because I never thought that writing would give me so many emotions. I can feel the pathos totally because of who my audience which is my peers and professor’s at this point.
Writing feels like climbing up a mountain to me. The climb is my preparation of writing which are my thoughts on what to write about. Thinking about what you are going to write about can be easy and hard at the same time to me. It’s when you get to the top is the time you get your writing utensils (pen and paper, laptop, or soap on the mirror). When you’re at the top there is only one way down and that is the time when you get your thoughts and emotions down on paper. When you get down the mountain you are at the finish line, you’re done, and your piece of writing is done.  You also have the choice to write at any pace you want unless you have a deadline to make. Along the way there may be some bumps and curves that you didn’t expect along the course but you will learn from those unexpected experiences and maybe even write about it.
I write a lot at work and have to be precise on my findings or notifications. I have to write in a formal manner in my emails to leadership and co-workers. Other formal writing that I have been doing lately is for getting another job or applying for scholarships. When I correspond with my friends and family I do not have to be as formal and I love it. They know me and we can joke back and forth or I can be serious about important stuff. There is no limit on how I can express myself than with my family. I do not live near my family and I enjoy any time that I can communicate with them because we are so far away from one another.
When I began writing the images that were in my head were of me typing away at my laptop and completing my book. It has been a dream for me and now having to really think about writing I keep finding excuses for some reason why I have not wrote anything. I could at least write a short story to get me going. I was beginning to think negatively about writing because I have not written anything. But in order to go forward I have to surround myself with some positive thoughts like how good it will feel when I have finished one short story about something interesting to me.
I can’t express enough how excited I am to be actually writing about what I think writing is like to me. I am not being funny either; it feels good to write about whatever is my head right now. I feel like Carey on “Sex in the City”. I often have questions that I would like answered that I am too embarrassed to ask about. I being embarrassed is my initial emotion or feeling when I am writing, because I am lacking confidence in myself for some reason when I really do not need to be.

My first blog

This is my first blog...not sure if I am doing this right or not. :)